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[desertions]

So basically, I need to jumpstart my writing muse more, and the one word prompts aren't doing it for me at the moment. So this is my proposal.

First twenty people to claim a pairing will get a fic based on whatever song happens to come up on my iPod. It may not be a long fic, it may be more drabble-esque, but it will be something. Feel free to request ship ships, sibling ships, friendships, hateships, whatever. Crossover, canon, gameverses. You request it, I'll see what I can do.

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He is Rugged And Long Lasting, Who Could Ever Ask For More - Sam/Lilah - 975 words

[succubitch]

Based on this song.

-

It wasn’t supposed to mean anything.

She made it clear to him that she was looking for one thing, and that was sex. That’s it. She didn’t have time for anything else in her life. She wasn’t going to be one of those stupid women who screwed up all their other plans in life because of love and feelings and all that bullshit.

He seemed to get it. When it came down to it, Sam was almost as ambitious as she was. He was as good of lawyer as she was, certainly, which isn’t something she’d say about most of her colleagues. He lacked the wishy-washiness you found in men like Lindsey McDonald, which was definitely refreshing.

The first time, it had happened on his desk. She had been the one to suggest it after a few drinks. In fact, she was almost always the one to initiate things. It was important to Lilah, being in control.

She had lots of admirers around the office. Men who tried to ask her out, who made mistakes about who she was. She always laughed at them, shutting them down. She didn’t need it. She already had a situation that worked for her.

But somewhere, things began to change.

She found herself not only seeking him out at the office, but outside of it too. It was just sex, stress relief, she told herself, but she knew the truth. Part of her just liked his company.

“Don’t you get tired of it?” He asked her one night as she got up from his bed (always his, she never invited him back to her place if she could help it).

“Tired of what?” She asked, as if she didn’t know what he was talking about. She was instead busying herself with finding her bra.

He dug underneath his pillow, handing it to her. And then he leaned back into the bed, sighing a little. “This. Just sex and nothing else. Don’t you ever want anything more? Don’t you ever get lonely?”

She paused, almost surprised at the question, as if she expected more from him or something. “I don’t need anyone but myself. I never have. “

“I don’t doubt that.” And he didn’t. Lilah was a force that couldn’t be reckoned with. He had no doubt she had mostly gotten that way out of her sheer will more than anything else. “But what if I wanted more than just this?”

She blinked a little. Men who actually knew her, unlike the fools at the office who hit on her, never tried to pursue her. They knew better. She was self-serving to a fault. She would always come first. Who would want to have a relationship with someone like that?

Sam Winchester, apparently.

“I thought you knew what this was.”

“I do. But I like you. And you like me, don’t try to pretend like you don’t.”

And it was true. She did. It was dangerous. She found herself looking forward to seeing him, buying him little gifts, planning surprises for him. It struck her in that moment that she had long started acting like his girlfriend before he had even brought up the conversation.

“Okay, I’ll give,” She said, sitting back down on the bed. “I like you. But I can’t afford something serious in my life right now.”

“So it isn’t serious,” he insisted, pressing a kiss against her shoulder. He was trying to coax her back into the bed. “Just stay with me for tonight. Just tonight.”

So she did

-

Things changed after that. She wasn’t sure where. They started occasionally having dinner together. Sometimes she came over and they didn’t even had sex. A few times, she even let him come to her apartment.

The best part was he never held it against her when she screwed him over at the office, and she never held it against him when he did the same. They both knew what kind of place Wolfram and Hart was. Kill or be killed. It was nothing personal.

But everything?

Well, that was.

-

It had been going on for six months when he told her he was taking a sabbatical for a while. His brother had found their father, finally, and apparently he was dead now. He said he had to help Dean, he was in a bad way.

She couldn’t hold it against him. She knew what it was like to take care of family. She paid for her mother’s care in an Alzheimer’s clinic back home, after all. He was the only one who knew that fact, outside of the Senior Partners, of course.

“It’ll be temporary,” He promised, pressing a kiss against her lips. “I should be back soon.”

She smirked, hiding any real feeling about it. “Well don’t hurry on account of me.”

She never admitted how much she would miss him, or that she didn’t want him to go. Her pride wouldn’t let her.

So he left.

-

He didn’t come back. She learned later, Dean pulled him back into the hunting business. Convinced him it was bad news to come back to a place like Wolfram and Hart. He told her over the phone.

“I’m sorry.”

She rolled her eyes and in a clipped tone told him, “Don’t be.”

And then she hung up.

-

After that she swore not to be that dumb again. Because she missed him. For months she found himself almost calling him, driving past the building he used to live in, drinking the drinks they used to share. It was dumb, and weak, and she would be better than that.

So her next fling would stay that. She didn’t need anything outside of sex, not really.

After all, a relationship like that can’t hurt you, can’t leave you.

Really, it’s much safer when you think about it.

Re: He is Rugged And Long Lasting, Who Could Ever Ask For More - Sam/Lilah - 975 words

[imnot_likeyou]

Oh, Lilah. I am sorry Sam is a doofus.

I loved this, though. Thank you!

Re: He is Rugged And Long Lasting, Who Could Ever Ask For More - Sam/Lilah - 975 words

[succubitch]

I'm so glad you liked it, thank you!