He can't stop smiling. For the first time in his life, Angel has reason to
be happy without worrying about what being happy could do to his very state
of being. Of course, he understood while he'd been the vampire with a soul
that it was crucial to everyone's safety — his, his friends', the city's,
the world's — that his life be at least a little bit miserable, because it
kept perfect happiness at bay. He'd been foolish enough to touch a moment
of it before, back in Sunnydale, and that hadn't exactly been a walk in the
park. Nor had what they'd yet, and hopefully would never, experience when
that thing that was possessing Cordelia convinced him to let a
shaman dislodge his soul from his proper place and let the unfiltered side
of him take control.
No more would the threat of Angelus be looming on the horizon. He hadn't
had the chance to enjoy that in hell. In fact, he actually toyed with the
idea (albeit briefly) of letting Spike turn him when he'd been sitting on
death's doorstep, because his unsouled self was the lesser of two evils
when it came to Angelus versus Wolfram & Hart. He's glad it didn't come to
that, even though there were many times in hell that he'd wished he were
still a vampire.
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He can't stop smiling. For the first time in his life, Angel has reason to be happy without worrying about what being happy could do to his very state of being. Of course, he understood while he'd been the vampire with a soul that it was crucial to everyone's safety — his, his friends', the city's, the world's — that his life be at least a little bit miserable, because it kept perfect happiness at bay. He'd been foolish enough to touch a moment of it before, back in Sunnydale, and that hadn't exactly been a walk in the park. Nor had what they'd yet, and hopefully would never, experience when that thing that was possessing Cordelia convinced him to let a shaman dislodge his soul from his proper place and let the unfiltered side of him take control.
No more would the threat of Angelus be looming on the horizon. He hadn't had the chance to enjoy that in hell. In fact, he actually toyed with the idea (albeit briefly) of letting Spike turn him when he'd been sitting on death's doorstep, because his unsouled self was the lesser of two evils when it came to Angelus versus Wolfram & Hart. He's glad it didn't come to that, even though there were many times in hell that he'd wished he were still a vampire.
"You wouldn't believe me if I told you."